Just One More Time

JUST ONE MORE TIME

DEVOETRY

Oh mommy what I would give for one more time
One more time to hold your hand and see your smile
One more time for you to curse at me and hear your laugh
I miss just having to pick up the phone and dial

I’d love to hear you say my name like you only could
I miss your hugs and always asking what I want to eat
Just one more time take me back to my childhood
Where I could lay next to you and hear your heartbeat

Sitting and watching you play solitaire
Until you noticed I was watching you
In that moment, you cleared the cards to prepare
For me to come for a cuddle or two

My love for Jesus and to put that love first
Comes from you and your love for Him
You always showed me my true worth
Oh how I would love to walk in and see you praying again

For all your faults and for all your pain
You never let me see it, not till almost the end
That night of you walking to the back room remains
But you got to see my father and my heart mend

I believe that night gave you peace
As your soul and Jesus were getting ready
That night you went home broke me to my knees
All I could hear was your voice, “You Mummy’s Baby!”

I remember holding your hand and it was still warm
Your face looked touched by an Angel
As if Jesus reminded me, only from this earth are you gone
“She is safe and with Me,” a soft whisper said so gentle

Just one more time I want the phone to ring
An-toe-knee ya coming for dinner?
That memory always makes my heart sing
Just one more time, I want that moment together

Just one more time, just one more time, Just one more time
Can you hear my desperation?
Those memories are forever mine
How I wish we were allowed one more conversation

Jesus is the soul behind my eyes

We are created in His image
Yet, we rarely see it on our own
The weight of this life causes this damage
Until we are on bended knee before His thrown

In that moment of Salvation given
Jesus enters into our souls freely
For everything against us is forgiven
and our souls shall live on eternally

Now, Jesus is the soul behind my eyes
We are no longer blinded by that spiritual death shroud
For the old way ceases and dies
We are now His beloved son or daughter as Vowed

When I see you now, It is your soul
Jesus shows me what you need
I do not only just see the part but the whole
The desperation for your soul to be freed

Jesus is the soul behind my eyes
When its me alone, I Fall
With Him I will always rise
Walking strong, no longer do I crawl

Surrender and choose His grace
Release and no longer believe the lies
Experience the love of His divine embrace
And now, Jesus is the soul behind your eyes

ONE LOVE, ONE KING, ALL CHRIST

Chaos of My Soul

Chaos of My Soul

We are created in His image
Born into a world of chaos
A world where we expect damage
And the devil tries to make us one of his lost

We are exposed to the choice of wrong and right
Our pride pushes us to the wrong
Here is where our soul begins its fight
And we start to choose where we belong

Choosing wrong always seems so easy
The numbing and pleasure that it brings
But at the end we always feel sleazy
As if we are controlled like a puppet on strings

This causes chaos in my soul
Many times, worthless is the feeling
Never wanting to take my head out the hole
Not realizing His offer of divine healing

My battle cry is screams of being torn
How many times will You forgive me?
Oh, My son, with Me you can transform
With Me, from chaos you can be free

My flesh desires to be in the wrong
These choices are what it was fed
The clawing to keep me is strong
But Jesus says, this is why I bled

To free you from this stronghold
Though chaos is what you know
I give you freedom, not parole
You are a new creation, no longer old

Come to Me as you are
This is a promise that will never change
Your wounds will heal, but you will still see the scar
Choosing Me is worth the exchange

You are My beloved before you were created
Chaos may bother your soul
But your sonship to Me can never be debated
I am your protector, the Lion on patrol