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         Hello my friends it has been more than 2 years since I have written any devotionals.  I have taken time to try and run from something I can’t run from Grief.  I have accepted my mom’s passing but the depth of what effect it had on my life was incredible.  Like a thief in the night, Satan used depression and worthlessness to deceive me into believing I was not worth it. Well 2 years and 2 weeks later I am here to say I am back by and only by the Power of Christ.  He has kept his hand on me throughout this whole time and is pulling me up out of the quicksand I purposely stepped into.  It is very hard to lose someone, but even more so when it is unexpected.  Life is so precious and it would not be fair to keep what God says through me to myself.  My mom left a Crown of Life that continues to grow to this day and I want to allow my Crown of life to do the same.  I want to be a good friend and I want people to know that I choose Christ.  So I want to say Hello, again and allow what God places on my heart through devotions, laments and poems guide you and help you to love those around you more and to experience what it truly means to be God’s one and only, His Beloved. SELAH!

No Control

I live my life as if I know
How every plan will workout
I have trouble accepting the word No
And my Pride is a problem without a doubt

I must have some control
These parts of my life are mine
Yes, I know God wants me whole
But most of the time His mercy I decline

I think I know what’s best
It’s my life and my choices
His love for me is hard to digest
This is caused I know by Satan’s many voices

How do I give you all of who I am
I want to surrender my problem of control
I know I am free by the blood of the Lamb
But now I want freedom for my bound soul

I have been scared to change for so long
That this has caused my flesh to always prevail
The willingness to give in felt so strong
In the end the Lie I listen to is an ungodly betrayal

My flesh will always want to choose
In Christ, however the choice is to submit
Through my brokenness I must repent and refuse
The subtleness of the Devils wit

Only God can truly be in control of me
This truth revealed is divinely intense
I found myself humbled on bended knee
Because it was just for me that he spared no expense

His Healing has given me back my shameless youth
What once was stolen, through Christ is mine again
Jesus Christ provides us with the perfect Truth
Which is I am His Beloved Child and for that I say Amen

Life Without You!

Life without you seems so unreal
Do you believe its almost been a year
My selfishness says I got the short end of the deal
But life without you is my burden to bear

I know and believe your in a better place
Far away from all of your pain
But that belief does not fill my hearts empty space
Nor the millions of thoughts of you flying around in my brain

You took such good care of me
Always worried about my needs
It was your uncondtional that was the key
That has helped me as a man sow many good seeds

When will I believe in myself
With the passion that you believed in me
Always you smiled even sacrificing your health
Always you greived for what Christ did for us on that tree

Life Without You, SELAH!