I know my heart and I know how I long to be the man of God that Jesus wants me to be.  I see it in my everyday life, from the thoughts that pass through to the people in my life.  This time will be for real, this will not be a time where I sabotage the good that I am doing.  I am well -known to myself for drawing near to Christ and right when things seems to fall into place with Him, I run, well I FLEE.  I am tired of running, and I am ready to face this life with Christ first.  I see all of my faults and rarely any of my strengths, even though, Jesus sends many people across my path to encourage me.  The deal is that we are lied to for so long that the lies of the bottom feeder(Satan) become true.  Our lives become so in-twined with the do’s and don’t’s of life that we forget where we started and where we are hoping to end.  The choice is not to give up and there will be no giving up, because as cliche as it may be, Our King did not give up on us when he had the choice on the cross, and as real as the day is 24 hours, I will not give up.  There is no going back to living life in secret and with lies.  I will live life with Christ first and pray for His protection over me as I walk into the fire everyday.  The heart of a true champion is not the heart that always wins, NO, it is the heart that continually chooses to heal after every time it is broken.  The heart that decides to get back up and face life again and love again, because and only because Jesus says so.  Amen and Amen!