Who am I?

I ask this question a lot to myself, but recently God has been asking me this.  Its not a comfortable question at all. The reason is the way He asks me the questions. Who am I to think I earn the right to sin, who am I to think my life doesn’t affect others, who am I to think I am not worthy to do His work, who am I to refuse to do His work, who am I to be more afraid of myself then a mighty powerful and real God, who am I to run away in fear of a God who only wants whats best for me, who am I to think my life is my own, who am I to think that running away means God won’t chase after me, who am I to think its always about me, who am I to think I have the right to do as I please, who am I to give advice but not apply it to my life.  I can go on and on, but ultimately God wants an answer and is waiting for my response.  When I think of myself I think of a man who wants so badly to change, but allows the lies of my life to come first, I have never really experienced God’s love fully, actually I have never allowed myself to feel any love for me fully.  The scripture says love your neighbor as you would love yourself.  My prayer is that in my obedience to Jesus this summer I would experience His love fully for the first time and that I would bring that into all of my relationships old and new. Selah!!