As Mother Day passes by it is always a difficult time.  However, the carnal self in me knows that my desire to not think about the pain is greater than sitting in it knowing that she is in Heaven.  The thoughts and temptations become overwhheming and the ability to resist them become almost unattainable.  This is going to be 6 years after her passing and every special day Mothers Day, Her Birthday, the Holidays all result in the same behavior, Numbness!  I finally realized in trusting Christ it means enjoying these days, the grief and longing to be with her will always be there but enjoy the moments with the people God has placed in your life.  The more you spend time with Christ the less the Evil One can sway you.  We have the Power of the Holy Spirit to guide us and fight for us.  It is so easy to give into the desires that overcome us in the times when we should rely on Jesus’ love but because we have programmed ourselves for so long we sometimes just go with the flow.  It is easier to medicate and not feel the hurt than to Feel Gods love.  The trick I am learning is just to say NO.  Saying No in the midst of the struggle, allowing the Holy Spirit to do what God promises he will do.  Save us!!  Salvation is not where becoming a Christian ends, its where it Begins.  I am thankful for the 32 years I got to spend with my Mom and even more for the eternity I will get to be with her as well.  Missing her, Loving Her and Longing for her touch and the sound of her laugh are healhty things to feel.  Its through the darkness that His light will shine Bright and losing someone we love brings extreme darkness. So My Friends Expect a BRIGHT WHITE HOT LIGHT!! Amen