God does so many wonderful things for me.  He is constantly in the works around my life.  Yet I seem to always find a way to doubt him.  When I should just be thankful for my next breath.  I made some big steps in my life that I have not done before and, I can tell you, the anxiety that is trying to wrap itself around my neck almost seems unbearable. For the true first time I am giving God this feeling and not allowing it to cut oxygen off to my brain so that my thoughts run free.  Something I learned in being vulnerable is that it sucks!!  However, I do believe on the positive side of it, the change in how I think is not relying on my maturity but in my weakness.  When I come to realize what is offered to me and through me the more I want and desire to trust God.  I just do not like to feel out of control!  I know that is something we are never completely in charge of but that is my delusional thinking, LOL.  Now I have done something that totally places it all in God’s hand and even took a step of acknowledgement in the matter.  There is a fear of rejection and of just plain fear.  Did I? Should I? Could I? When I? are the thoughts that typically bombard me and in all honestly I feel them wanted to drop bombs on me but Christ is there.  He has always been, I just have always been “In Control.”  My prayer I ask for you and me is that we would trust God regardless of how we feel and let him work in our lives to direct us and glorify him.  We should enjoy the fruits of the overflow and HE WILL GIVE YOU THE DESIRES OF OUR HEARTS! Claim that, Believe that because in the end, My Life is Not about Me,  it is about SERVING and SURRENDERING TO HIM!  Amen!!

One Love, One King, All Christ!