I was reading a devotional that was sent to me and this was the topic of the day.  As I started to read it, I became more and more convicted in my soul.  I realized there are so many times that I make decisions and go with what I feel is right, rather than what God has in store.  I know it happens to me the most when I feel my prayers are not being answered in the time I want them to be.  I always know when I start to draw back closer to God as my concerns and wants become less about me and more about him.  Then there is always some obstacle that comes into play and BOOM, I go right back to making a decision that I have “control” over instead of truly letting God drive.  I want to be the man of God that I was born to be, but if I keep trying to move around while he is molding me, it will take a lot longer because of me. I think it is funny that I actually believe I can make a decision that will impact my life or even someone else without consulting Jesus.  This is advice I give all the time but yet I do not follow my own advice.  I can tell you I am so tired of this and it has finally made it to the point where you are so far underwater and racing to the top to take that DEEP BREATH of air and you feel like you are not going to make it and then you Do!!  Life is crazy and I am stubborn and it takes me to suffer and suffocate before I truly just turn and place my eyes where I am most joyful and at peace, JESUS!