Today is a day of praise! Feeling, seeing and holding onto the beauty of Christ.  I realize this life is not about living day by day but it is about enjoying every moment.  Since finally believing that everything that was done in darkness has been paid in full and covered by the blood of Christ Jesus. I have been able to go back and pull moments that I thought I had lost. There were smiles, words of encouragement, and hugs I had forgotten, but God brought them back to me.  I have always held onto the bad or the hurt and that only led me to more pain.  I felt as my heart has hardened over these past few years or more.  As I felt it become callused I didn’t choose to stop it, but I fed into it. Now as my emotions and my mind are falling back in line and in love with Jesus, those layers of stone are being smashed one at a time.

Jesus has always had me in his hands since that moment, that summer, sitting and crying, as he let me know he loved me and I accepted him into my heart over 20 years ago.  I have recently felt like he was gone or too far away because of choices I made, however the truth was he was always in the middle of everything I had going on, good and bad.  OH, I ONCE WAS BLIND, BUT NOW I SEE.  I see life for every moment and believe as I fall in line with God’s plan for my life, the desires of my heart and soul will come true because he says so.  You see his plan for me has never changed I just took detours of my own doing.  I’m tired and finally want freedom in Christ as much as I want to take my next breath.  I know and trust in His plan and my calling, my future wife(which I have a letter for), my future children and all he will ask of me will be done.  For every moment I get to see and enjoy, he will erase every moment that has made me blind and in pain.  I ONCE CHOSE TO BE BLIND, BUT NOW I CHOOSE TO SEE by his grace which is our gift! Amen

One Love, One King, All Christ!