I can feel God’s hand molding and moving my mind. For the first time I am aware of being in the Potter’s hand. It is an amazing feeling but a difficult one. I prefer the pressure and pain of this embrace than the suffocating darkness I usually ran to. I have been more aware of God’s voice and traps being set around me. My heart is softening and my concerns are less about me and more about others. My bondage has kept me so tightly wrapped for over 30 years, but now to finally feel the warmth of Jesus’ light and not run from it is soothing.
Trusting God sounds so easy and many times we say it as if it was as easy as brushing off our shoulders. However, to truly trust him means believing without seeing. Faith is the word I am talking about and it is so out of reach for us that Jesus says we just need Faith the size of a mustard seed. He knows our chemistry and dependencies and the freedom that is stripped from us moment by moment. For many of these years Satan did not need to do a lot to persuade me to sin, I did most of that damage to myself. Now that I have decided to listen I can hear and see my bondage, that I am free from now, in others. Do I let them learn the hard way? NO. God has been sending people to cross my path for years. As I choose to see my son-ship in Christ it would be criminal and selfish to let those suffer, struggle and fall to the waste side. I know I must continue to let God mold me as he prepares me for the plans he has set for me.
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosperyou and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future.
I genuinely believe the “wants” I have and always thought I was unworthy of ARE in my future. My surrender to God my father as his son, my wife and my children. My want to follow Christ with no hesitation and initiate the sacrifice of accepting the new as the old is gone. I know I am exactly where I am supposed to be in God’s timing. Amen!
One Love, One King, All Christ!
