Sin Has Nothing to Offer, TRULY!

I decided a few days ago in one of my quiet times that I wanted to commit fully to God.  I want him to become more than enough for me. That no matter the outcome of my life (Job, Path, Marriage, Children) would all be left to him.  I ordered a promise ring, A Manly Black Steel One, Thank You!  I want to fall in love with Jesus, my first love.  I know my desires will be fulfilled by him and I am learning to believe in the impossible.  I am here sitting in the backyard enjoying the breeze on my face and smoking a nicely lit slow burning smooth cigar.  Can you tell I enjoy Cigars, LOL!  A few thoughts shoot by my head and they are very familiar.  We all have those thoughts we are not very fond of that pop in and always at the wrong time.  Well, it just so happens that the chair next to me is empty to the naked eye but Jesus is chilling with me.  As the thought try’s to anchor itself the whisper from Christ still quiet voice SMASHES the sinful temptation.  We believe sin answers our call to “feeling” better and even to say it’s so OVERPOWERING that I CANT STOP!  There is pure truth that Satan and his demons play a part in trying to devour us, however we are the major players of sabotage.  We get this false sense of control like we can alter the trials we experience  and we are delusional to the point of telling God to stand aside because we can handle it.  The pain that follows is never bad enough because we typically choose sin to numb it.  That cycle is vicious and relentless in its pursuit to feed on our souls.  Nothing in us but our soul desires the glory of God because every other part of us is renewed!  It is our soul that goes to Heaven and we receive a Godly heart, flesh and thoughts.  The old stays in the grave and the New Us arrives in Heaven.  All the thieves and liars and sinful appetites are not allowed to follow us to Glory of Heaven.  A lot of times we do not think of this because we want those things have to “offer” us here and now.  Knowing now, emeshed in my soul, the truth that Jesus allowed himself to be destroyed then resurrected so that I would not be stuck in Hell confirms sin has nothing to offer but death. Death of Joy, Death of Peace, Death of Innocence, Death of Purity, Death of Mercy and the Birth of Selfishness.  When you make this life all about you, YOU ROT!

I refuse to be defeated and I refuse to listen to the liars, thieves and thugs of Satan.  I will choose Love.  Now when I look down on that promise( remember Manly Black Steel Ring) with that cross and the Lord’s Prayer I will remember I am His friend, His Son and most importantly of all His Beloved.  As I surrender I know that he will provide in that promise my future wife and I pray that he will bless her, mold her to deal with me(lol), and watch over her as he prepares me for her.  I am excited as I go on this purifying journey with my Papa for these next 5 months.  My goal is to fall back in Love with my First Love, Jesus.  Amen!

One Love, One King, All Christ!

The Truth In The Light

John 1:5 (NIV)

⁵ The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome^[a] it.

The past 2 months have been such a transforming time for my soul.  God has truly placed his hands upon me and has guided the Holy Spirit in molding me.  I have read the above verse probably a thousand times and never understood it until now.  What we consider as impossible, to God is very much possible.  When we battle our inner demons we feel defeated.  We continually say I can’t stop this or worse we just accept it as who we are and lose the battles the rest of our lives.  God recently revealed to me in prayer that the majority of the pleasure I have experienced in my life has been to avoid pain.  HOW CRAZY IS THAT?  I haven’t been able to enjoy many of the small victories in life because I always look to find what is wrong with me.  Today is a different day and God is revealing so much and for this I am thankful, especially thankful for deliverance.

When God says and talks about the word being light, He is talking about our Savior, Jesus.  Every moment with Jesus in the New Testament shows Jesus making the darkness run away and healing those who came close.  Healing is what we all desire in life because of the wounds we experience.  We have scars, but many of those have not healed well and are just scabbed over and easy to bleed again.  We desire healing, but God calls for us to scar up not smooth up.  Our scars remind us of where God has been with us and that he doesn’t leave.  As I watch the rerun of my life to this point I see how influenced my life has been by my pain.  Now, I can see who I am in Christ I am excited to see how the rest of life will pan out with God leading and me following.

I am currently at a place in my life that I thought I would never be able to reach with God.  A place of Surrender where I can hear God clearly.  Where he is constantly speaking peace to my heart and placing a calming hand on my thoughts.  I am now gaining wisdom on his terms and not mine, a prayer I prayed many mango seasons ago.  The light of Christ is now covering me, no longer the darkness I use to feel comfort in.  I can feel that the grave clothes have been removed, they have fallen off and the warmth of my Heavenly Father’s embrace is overwhelming.  I have learned that the grave clothes fall off the body but don’t completely detach.  We drag them behind us, enough so that we walk with a slight limp.  That is a reminder to not become complacent in Christ and remember the enemy(Satan) is lurking like a HUNGRY STARVING BIG TOOTHED ROTTED GUMMED LION!  The more I follow and stay in the light the further away the darkness and grave clothes feel.  It doesn’t have an impact on my decisions or thoughts but I still need to know it is there and my healing needs to be intentional.  By giving God my full surrender and waiting on his transcending peace and not on “What I want” or worse ” What I THINK is best” for me I am experiencing worship in a deeper and more meaningful way.  I cannot believe how much God has changed me in these past few weeks.  I can only imagine what years of progress of living in Christ will be like.  My dear, dear Friends, God can fix you, you can stop and most importantly HE LOVES YOU! Amen

One Love, One King, All Christ!

he makes all things new ( Restoration)