I have always wondered what it is about me that draws people near.  I have always been someone’s close friend for as long as I can remember.  There was always someone in my life starting as young as age 3.  What is it that they see? why me? was I safe? Did they really like/love me?  I have long wondered what people saw but more importantly what my close friends have seen in me through my lifetime.  I have been blessed to have several old friends and a few new ones that trust me and truly care about me.  It never fails and for all the years I wondered the answer was right in front of my face.  They see the Jesus in me.  I believe strongly our souls connect and there is a feeling of peace and a whisper of “It is OK, My Beloved!”  I know when I gave up protecting myself by not fully trusting people in my life, I started to feel and hear that whisper.

We cannot truly love someone if we are not willing to let them hurt us.  That was so hard for me to accept, I was amazing at faking that I allowed people into my trust.  Now that I am willing to be hurt, it has created some amazing relationships for me in my life. There are people that know me, the real me with no mask!  My prayer now as I spend time with my Papa is that the one relationship I desire to happen and hopefully soon, in God’s time of course, will Explode this feeling and truth for both me and my future wife.  What I have come to realize instead of longing for the day that I will meet her I should be meticulous in becoming the type of Godly husband she needs me to be for her.  If I allow God to work on me and I focus on him then when she does come it will be such a special and awesome blessing!

I wrote a few weeks back about when we look at our reflection in the mirror we should see Christ and now my wonder of what that will look like and feel like has become truth.  He has blessed me with a kind, loving, funny and honest heart.  Then as I give it to him my soul surrounds and heals the brokenness and the Holy Spirit guides like a floating feather.  There are some areas I need to let go and let God, but thankfully He has provided teachers, mentors and friends to guide me.  I, my friends, am so humbled to answer the question “What do you see when you see me?” I hope you see Jesus! Amen

One Love, One King, All Christ!