I have often wondered why certain things happen for people and do not happen for me. Have any of you ever had that thought? It may be in passing for some and an obsession for others. It wasn’t until the other day that God revealed to me my selfishness. Now, it is masked because it happens behind closed doors when I have my “Oh Woes Me!” moments. The moments that thoughts of envy or lack of success in an area of your life pop up. I will share with you where most of my struggles are anchored. It is not being ok that I am single and then trying to fix that on my own. I am not good at that at all. However, I would never stop to think about that and I would just feel sorry for myself and that would bring me down. I would respond with finding more things to do to distract me from the one thing God was trying to tell me!

HUMBLE YOURSELF BEFORE ME, Anthony!! You see He revealed to me that I have been looking so hard for what I want in a wife that I forgotten that I should be living like a man that a woman would desire to be her husband. We have these list when it comes to relationships and it is funny how these list are not as detailed as they once were when we were young. I didn’t think about my list until I was watching a cheesy Christian movie the other night. I am sitting on my couch and just enjoying the night and watching this movie and thinking that the main character is an idiot. I was like what is he thinking and why can’t he see what God is doing in his life. Well, with about 15 minutes left in the movie, the scene is the main character with his dad and he is so sure he did nothing wrong in hurting the woman that he really liked. The dad looks at him and says to him ” son you made a list of everything you needed your perfect woman to be, did you ever stop to think about what she needed, You are Selfish!!” and Boom God hit me!! Right there on my couch and all the years of failed relationships I never once thought of that, fitting right!!

Then not to many moments after that, in a prayer time of repentance, God shares with me James 4:10 ” Humble yourself before God.” I realized that it is not about our sin and missing the mark, but it is the struggle we have and the choice to repent that makes us different as Christians. My weakness is strength in the eyes of the Lord. So if I follow through as He says and submit to him and give him all of me and turn away from my selfish ways, not only do I get to share in the comfort of Christ but I also will receive his blessings. I do know I am not supposed to be alone and I have searched wrongly to fill that void, but now I will humble myself and act like the man a woman would want to make her husband!! Amen that we can return 70 times 7 and Our Father and our Savior are always receiving of us. My friends, humble yourself before your God in all you do and allow him to bless you in amazing aways!!

One Love, One King All Christ!!