One of my dearest friends is in a battle for his life. As he lays on his hospital bed with tubes in him and a machine breathing for him, his Faith never wavered before this moment. I went to see him and had a chance to talk to him and he trusted God in this moment in his life. This is the darkest moment of his life and Christ is working to shine light in this darkness and here I am everyday choosing to live in disobedience and not in the Glory of who Jesus is. I know Jesus and I know He is real and what He can do and yet I choose selfishly many times, Me.

It cannot be moments like this that only bring us back to Christ, once we accept Him our life needs to change and become His. I want it but never want it enough and turn to worldly things to deal with my struggles and lies that attack me. My desire to serve God is there but is weighed down by my choices. The bondage that keeps me pulled down instead of Free in Christ. The lives that come across our paths are there for us to share who Jesus is in us and what He does for us. We have jobs and we have responsibilities and I know this is true for most of us. However, our number 1 priority and what should be MY NUMBER 1 is to share the love of Jesus. I can do better!!

I ask for all of you who take the time to read this to please pray for my dear friend David Spell and that God will heal him on this side of Heaven that he may resume being the awesome father and husband that he is. I pray as we all have people we care about going through difficult times that we would pray for them and offer our hearts, hands and souls to them. I lost my Godmother last week, Aunty Marie, and her life is being celebrated tomorrow. She was involved in my life a lot when I was growing up and well into my 20’s. I haven’t seen her in quite a few years, but I know she suffered with lupus and that was a battle she had for many years. I want the Jesus and the Holy Spirit that is in me to continue to speak to me and that I would choose to start to listen. I want to do God’s work and I want to do it for the people I love and for people that He places in my path.

My Faith must be what I hold onto, to trust He will heal, He will comfort and He will guide me to His glory! I love Jesus, I truly do, but if you were to look at my relationship with him, you would say we are maybe friends! I do not give him my all and make excuses. It is time to stop being childish and DO HIS WILL that God has set upon me to do! Do not wait, but continue to treat people well and give them the extra kindness they need. We live in a world filled and powered by negativity, but Jesus is that Positive Charge that no darkness or negativity can stop. There might be bumps and bruises and growing pangs, but it is in Trusting HIM in all times that we truly grow in Love and Relationship with Him. I choose faith, Jesus knows how difficult it is for us to have faith, that He only requires Faith the size of a mustard seed. Within that size of Faith we can move mountains because He moves them for us.

Choose your Faith over Fear and Disobedience my Friends.. I love you all and please pray for my friend David and for all of my family of my Godmother Marie who will be saying their farewell’s on this side of Heaven tomorrow.

One Love, One King, All Christ