One of the hardest truths for me to believe is this. Now, we know God is a God of truth but yet I will choose to believe the lies and not wake up realizing I have a whole new day of mercies set aside for me. This doesn’t give me the freedom to sin, but it gives me the Freedom I have in Christ to always turn to him, daily. I just returned from a youth camp that I have volunteered at for over 20 years. Every time I go it’s a grind and we are always working behind the scenes to make sure everything flows smoothly. We deal with any issues whether it be production, set up, time frames, breakdowns, etc. This takes an average about 30 people behind the scenes so that the campers don’t miss a beat of experiencing who Christ is!
I bring this up because I now see this is a lot of how the Holy Trinity works in our lives. Jesus and the Holy Spirit are constantly battling and positioning themselves in our lives so we can experience the love of God in our lives. They know we will fall but in that fall they just want us to get back up and continue loving on others in our lives and living the call they have put on our lives. What caught my attention was one of my helpers for recreation was a camper last year. So, as we were working the grind and dealing with a lot more than just the Rec Games, he was like I had NO idea that much was going. I said thats how you know it’s being done right, not perfect, but right!
God’s call on my life is to intercede and pray for people, but to also share what He has done in my life. I need to know that He is big enough to cover me and as I step into that light that He will not allow me to be shamed or embarrassed. These will be the things that will cover me and I will feel it in my chest, but Jesus took all of this on and I have to trust that. The more I see people surrender to Him, they just do and don’t question and a part of me feels like that may be happening to me. I love what I do and my life has been blessed by Christ! He has watched over me and loved me in all my victories and defeats. When I step back and look at my dreams and the goals I set out before me, I have reached them and continue to do so.
There are seasons we live in life and I know at 47 I am young and still have much more to do for Jesus. A desire to see Him glorified in all I do. I do struggle with my language and that is mainly because I am NOT putting Him first!! He is put to the side too many times when I am feeling numb. My love for Christ runs deep, it truly does, so it is my faith that has carried me through but now it needs to be my every breath! He loves us so much that He is willing to give us new mercies everyday, which means we must forget about yesterday and know that He will give us another opportunity to GLORIFY Him.
